Alabaster Box

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Prologue (excerpt from book)

2:00 am, it was a cool spring night in 1994, there I stood on the roof top of a Seven story apartment building where I ended up living; having to move back to my mom’s in the islands with my three children, the youngest just shy of a year old. I was just tired of everything, tired of barely scraping together a living, tired of the

 “train wreck” of a marriage, tired of always having that tape screaming in my mind of what a failure I had become. Tired of not being able to give my kids the simplest of things that they deserved, they were wonderful kids and deserved the best of which; I or my husband could never seem to be able to give to them.

 

I had made a mess of my life and my marriage.... the divorce was filed but not final; the cycle of feeling unimportant to anyone except my kids was over, they were the reason I held on for as long as I did. 

 

So, here I was on the edge of a roof top, my mind wasn’t focused on anything else but ending the pain, the rejection, the hurt, God, the hurt! I saw no way out of this very dark place; I knew someone in my family would look after my kids; that was for certain.  I looked down into what I knew was thick foliage; for the apartment building was on a hill.

 

I closed my eyes, prayed and asked the Lord to please forgive me, for what I was contemplating……as I leaned forward and looked into utter darkness; I felt an arm suddenly wrap around my waist and pulled me back with a hard jerk; I hit the concrete of the roof top hard, which angered me, I turned my head around to let whoever had interrupted me “have it”, when I looked, there was no one there! At least no one I could see with my eyes, but I felt the presence of someone…..they were still there; I knew it; and I lost it!

 

I screamed and prayed and screamed some more, it amazingly felt like I was being cleansed of all the junk that was backed up in my spirit, soul, and my mind. I got up on my knees and cried out with all my might, LORD! Since you’ve saved this life, you must want it! I give it to you……Maybe you can do a better job with it, because I sure didn’t!!

 

 I heard a familiar voice, that I hadn’t heard for a while…..

“I want it” then He told me; tomorrow at 6am, get up and go to the beach (He named the beach). That was all He spoke that night, I came down off the roof, went into the apartment I shared with my mom, went into my room, shut the door and again got on my knees and stayed there the rest of the night. I knew something was changed inside of me, I wasn’t sure what, but I knew it happened.

 

The next morning; I was dressed by 5am; I went to my mom’s room and asked her to listen out for the baby, (my two older girls were staying with one of my sisters); I was going down to the beach, I would be right back. My mom looked at me; her unspoken questions were all over her face, but she nodded ok. I walked down the hill and caught a bus to the beach.

 

 

As I started walking, there was no one on the beach. I felt such a strong presence of God on that beach, I was so grateful to be able to feel Him the way I used to be able to before. I was crying and thanking Him for that, as I walked; something washed up on the sand a little way in front of me; it was a bottle.

 

 I walked past it, until I got to the end of the beach; turned around and picked it up on my way back, I looked through the dark brown glass and saw what looked like a note; I screwed the cap off and pulled the note out, it was written on a lilac colored paper in dark purple looking ink…. What I’m about to say will make you think I’ve made this up, but it is the absolute truth! I’ve repeated this story many times since this happened.

 

What was written was from a female apparently to the Lord and she was thanking Him for a list of things that He had done for her, it was enumerated 1-10 and some of those things were the exact things that has been on my heart for years, things that; up until this moment, I’ve never been able to achieve, the rest were things that as of the writing of this book, I have seen God do in my life; but at the time I was reading the note; I had no idea was in His heart for me.  I cried so hard and so loud and so long, as I read and re-read over and over again that note; because I knew this was me!

 

When I was able to compose myself somewhat, I folded the note and was placing it into the pocket of my jeans; I heard the same familiar voice say to me….” Don’t keep it, put it back into the bottle and throw it back out into the sea. I stopped dead in my tracks and protested; but Lord, why can’t I keep this, please let me keep this! (I wanted to show it to my mom) but he repeated what he’d said, so I very reluctantly did as He instructed me to do. (I now had no proof of what just happened).

 

That night began a new dimension in my life with God; and to this day, they continue to be the most amazing experiences!!!

 

I don't know whose heart the Holy Spirit will move after reading my story, I've stayed true to all the experiences that I've had over the years. My desire to seek the Lord Jesus Christ with my whole heart, have given me the things you are about to read.  I pray that the Father and Jesus Christ be lifted up in your heart as you read the stories I have written, I also pray that the Holy Spirit will witness with your spirit that everything written within the pages of this book can be achieved by all who seek Him.